last night i didn’t sleep well either. i’m anxious and worried, not for the test or the interview, but for the whole idea of reading architecture. yes if i manage to study architecture, that’s something i’d be proud of and so would my parents, but my concerns lie also, in areas of managing the cirriculum and stress (which i’ll comment on later) and more importantly future prospects and drawing which i fucking suck at.

cirriculum & stress. i know i can take stress well, just like many other students in singapore. and i know how hectic jc life was for some of us who took the As. yet how ironic it has to become for students who were once from ex-SAP and top jc’s face difficulties in their term of study and dropped out as a result? and i find this a pity. i’m sure they chionged all the way and did not give up during the jc years, and if they could then, why not now in archi? it must be sth (i believe it’s the workload and pressure from tutors) that had taken the toll on and triggered these students to quit, without thinking twice. they just gave up! i’ve wasted 2 years in ns, 2 extra years in poly compared to my jc frens, and i have no more time to waste! i CANNOT afford think about restarting a new course..

drawing. ’nuff said. my tree looks like a fucking retarded genie green cloud with a brown trunk that never will look like a trunk. -_-.

singapore’s architecture imo. tee guan’s sis’s bf commented that archis are one of the lowest paid jobs in the industry. (btw he’s in 4th year!!) even if no one tells me, i’d have longed knew - singapore’s architecture scene lacks support from the majority like honestly, how many of us actually appreciate the architecture of a building? an icon? say.. merlion? or even the esplanade? read the HORRIBLE critics people gave on it. secondly, there’s no ‘character’ in the buildings that singapore architects design, imo. ’if it looks classy, sleek, urban, ok the building is ready to go”. take the new cathay for instance. not to be offensive, but i think the outlook of it is fucked up. as i’ve said.. no ‘character’. and architects should wander off to places like scotland, egypt and europe where architecture is truly rich! and what i mean by character is.. the buildings in these exotic places have their own unique designs, like of missionary styles, colonial styles, geogorian building structures.. they have columns, platforms that deserve admiration and awe; they have so many things there that an architect can make his time worth. if you’ve been to see the colours and beauty of the town structures in other countries, you go Oh wow.. back home i can only look at the esplanade and go.. “eeee cheh!” ok i do give a bit credit, but come on you know what i’m trying to say..

future prospects. eventually even architect graduates are one of the lowest paid jobs in the industry according to sg wage stats or straits times. the fact that i’m paying so much, getting cranky everyday in design studios for dunnoe how many years, drawing for the sake of drawing -_- and increasingly becoming so T-off and such a whiny bitch cos i’m jealous my friends can spend their weekends outside shopping and me dunking in art in the studios in weekends, is not AT ALL acceptable by most architects because they’re compensated with peanut dollars! it’s not the ‘right treatment’ i’d say, but what to do, arki scene is dying in singapore or has died for that matter. unless u’re a crazy god in architecture, by all means, smile when people approach you for million-dollar projects. and i’ve read from somewhere that.. a degree in architecture is not really enough; at most u can only be a assistant architect, junior architect or drafter at a firm. excel to master’s, get at least 2 years of experience and head for the BOA test, only then can you be a qualified professional architect to start a firm or watever you like to do ahead. and by then, i’m a old whiny 30-32 yo.

but i guess it isn’t that bad after all. if there’s software i can work on or IT design that i can develop in, it’s something which i like and will do my best in! and if there are things like interior designing or urban planing where geography comes into use, then this is where i’d most likely be whining lesser lol. sometimes i just have to accept the fact that yes though these are things that i like, and in order to accomplish something in architecture, i just have to learn the technicalities and the drawing part.. that’s my fear.. i have only designing flare. i draw shit.

special thanks to stanley and his friend and tee guan’s sis’s bf for giving me a bit more insight into architecture. i guess you’re right hon i shd take the test and the interview and see how things get along later…

and leicester, i’ll miss your bubbly presence and loudly-engineered guffawing. take care buddy and all the best to you in thailand! and wth.. thai airways has no postcards?! chey! lousy.. LOL.

abt timmy and his personal email he wrote to me, i’ve given him an answer. straightforward.

ok.. think i’ shall stop here, i need to go get some stationery for my test. wish me luck!! yeah… my portfolio is almost completed..