can someone explain to me the sudden reinforcing every now and then in office, of the fact that i am fat and needed to work out to lose the pounds? no, i’m not irritated by the constant ramblings by my colleagues nor am i pressurised to hit the gym or the track. or the pool for that matter. i know myself well and yes i really do wish to lose some fats with a form of motivation from the ‘right’ people and be healthy. first, at the rate i’m going at munching on junk food and food-hunting around in office just to find things i can eat isn’t gonna make it seem like losing 5 kg in 3 months is easy which i initially thought it would be. secondly, i’m lazy, and always giving excuses like oh i have things to do or datelines to meet for timmy today. fuck. and despite the incessant persuasion by people like jeff, ben, leicester and a few others (they nag for my own sake!), i still can’t find even the slightest determination to get off my chair and sweat it out. all i could say every week was games day heck. friday life fuck it.
few days and my weight remains stagnant at 97, no increase or decrease, now that remains good news or.. o.k no news -_-. 5 kg of fats to fucking lose in 90 days! not a pleasant bet, and i think i may screw it up. kok wei has decided to join the mob for noon gym sessions, stanley embarrasses himself in public gyms (at least he made the effort!), even anthony who started swimming a few years back gets himself disciplined to hit 10 laps these days. & me, not an avid sports player, but of a fat tooty non-stop hogger who hogs and hogs and does so much work in office and complains of the stench and the stuffy air in the morning, won’t feel at all paiseh or bothered. shit. it only takes NOW for me to realise how procrastinative i am and the people around me who care for me and my health. their remarks are heart-hitting at times, but i know they are doing me good when they hid food or when timmy tried to stop patrick from offering me junk but failed and sighed.. sorry..
from next week, or rather from hon’s 11th apr ord dinner onwards, i’ll try my best to work towards my aim of shedding the kilos. i have sorta found solutions to my hourly-hunger, but ultimately i would need people to push me along, to guide me in my perseverance. and more importantly, discipline.
about bitching. not a very nice thing to do but sometimes effective for me to let go steam. i was doing my work this afternoon (my ehm -_-) and was hit on the head by something hard and of cos it was painful! at first i thought it was an accident or sth. not until i stood up instantly and that fucker X was standing in his cubicle. knowing that i’m not someone who won’t get angry easily (you’re damn fucking wrong!), he said sorrie in like what.. some joking manner or sth?! my anger is not appeased and neither am i accepting any of his apologies, not even if he says it a thousand times (as if he would).. fuck off. if i haven’t been all along a ‘forgive and forget’ person who don’t bear grudges, i would hell create trouble for him. but no, i prefer harmony as anuar had put it. and if you’re wondering what i got hit by.. it was a rubberband that X has tried to ’shoot’ while playing with the guy in his left cubicle. how gay. he jolly knew well the hints i’ve been giving him of how detestful he is and oh gawd thankfully it’s my head; i’ll see how he explains if it was a pair of scissors or hard indiarubber that hits my eye. useless bozo.
i kinda start feeling that i need to do more things at current, aside from my ehm which i’m basically facing it everyday -_-, like..
1) learning how to cook pasta (spaghetti) and soups. (the fact that i’m actually spending tens of dollars eating italian cuisines i craved for every week!)
2) reading up and improving my english.
3) pampering myself with a homemade facial (i’ve got the recipe for a cu-cumbersome facial spa lol)
4) slimming down (if it’s successful i shall reveal my secrets. during my hunger pangs in office, observe me closely with a new selection of light hearty food in replacement of the current junk food like fish cracker balls @_@).
5) jogging & running, swimming if time permits during office hours. maybe i’ll start a regime.
6) and more to add if i can think of any. heh.
on train commuters. for once please.. i beg your kind gesture to not BLOCK THE DOOR ENTRANCE!! you know how annoying it gets when i’m trying to get my way out (squeezing and getting my bag stuck in between asses behind me)? and after my dinner in camp and waiting for the rain to subside (it was getting late), who would have expected that the train gets even more crowded?! bummer. thank gawd i have 8 days to kill my boredom and to control my bursts of pissing offs. this kind of attitude is not seen in other countries that i know of; singaporeans have become like this as a result of the being kiasu and kiasi.
and maybe i should watch my spending habits. my expenditure has gone way beyond my budget for this month @_@. thanks to the many birthday gifts i bought, crap and junk i ate, and endless hogging sessions with guojie lol. shoots!
to jh: hey let’s do some running with tan im soon lol.
to jeff: don’t belittle me! i’ll do it lol.
to leicester: no kiddin’. you do have mariah-esque D+ cup-sized breasts.
to hon: thanks for the good selection of chinese songs for me to usher into the night when i sleep.
to rob: forgive me for not answering your calls. they’re precious to me but you called at the wrong time and i don’t have the infrastructure to call you downunder.
cya people. have a great wednesday! i’m voting for mandisa. you go gurll~!
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