Guilty I was when Stanley mouthed the two words, expressing loss of hope. I ate 2 0.5 cm snippets of twistee from Beng and Anthony. What the fuck am I doing?! I’m supposed to be on a DIET! spelled.. D-I-E-T! Crackers are sinful and ought to be out of my sight next time!. Hmph.
So I punished myself by running 7 rounds during LIFE. Instead of feeling shitty, I conversely felt really really gd after the run! - sweated it all out and explored my limits. I think it was a good start for me so I plan to keep the plan going.
Mr Vincent gave me this diet recipe I’m quite dubious about.
Breakfast: It’s ok to take 1 complete meal such as bee hoon from canteen, minus the fried stuff.
Lunch: 1 Yakult, 2 Biscuits & 2 Apples
Dinner: 1 Rice and 3 servings of vegetables.
Supper: Narhia! Still want supper?! =_=
Apart from watching of diet, I have to get myself jogging! 5 times a week 30 mins a session, and guarantee a 16 kg loss in 2 months. That’s like almost impossible when I first heard it. But after calculating to about 2 kg a week, I thought hey.. It’s possible.
And Samuel gave me a checklist of things I MUST avoid:
Cakes
Sweet beverages
ALL Fried Stuff (argh)
Bread (white)
Breakfast Cereals (on the contrary Guojie wanted me to trust him that cereals don’t add to weight and I can have them every night). Oh dear~ which method to adopt??
Crackers / Sweets
Chocolates
Consuming all of the rice (I can only be allowed half-portioned)
Alrighty, signing off for my dinner and I hope I can continue to discipline myself like I did today. 
A confession to be made: I’m one blur dodo.
On the Singapore Idol application form, it stated there CLEARLY that I have to rate the following talents: singing, song composing/writing, dancing and acting with a scale of 1 being the best, 4 being the worst respectively.
I definitely know my singing is better than the rest. I suck at dancing. Ok with song composing and acting - I have Act 3 Drama cert and was in ELDDS before, so at least acting wasn’t something I fear about if I’m called to perform a scene or sth. So my intention was to put singing the best, acting good, song-writing average and dancing average. So it should be:
Singing - 1, Song-writing - 2, Dancing - 3, Acting - 2.
HELL my input was fucking this..
Singing - 4, Song-writing - 3, Dancing - 2, Acting - 3.
Damn it. And it’s all too late after I clicked submit! Argh.. And there was another open-ended question asking how well I could sing. I wrote abt my singing styles, famously used 4+ octave range, my fortes, vocal abilities etc.. The judges would be thinking then.. what the fuck am I doing?! “You rated singing as WORST, and in the open qn, you said the reverse. What’s all the contradiction?!” Oh dear.. *gulp*. I really really hope that despite my input of 4 being WORST, they would at least give me a chance still, cos I don’t know. The judges could be thinking since your singing sux, then why the hell you join? Ok stamp chop “Eliminated”. T_T
How? What am I to do?
Cancel?
Be apologetic when queried on this issue during audition day?
Give SI’s producers a call asking if the form could be void?
Argh.. stupid blur me.
Oh oh and I lost 500g!! YAY! 
Today’s officially my first day of DIETING. It was TORMENTING >_<!! Let me recount what I had today.
Breakfast 1 - Pork Floss Bun, Milo Cereal & Water (@ Home)
Breakfast 2 - Canned Carrot Juice (Beng was tryin’ to tempt me with his Dau Pok and Bao Bing. It doesn’t work on me~~. LOL)
Lunch - Ah HA! I didn’t have ice-cream! I took a small handful of rice with the ingredients, drank a few spoons of the soup and munched on 2 apples and 1 pear.
Afternoon - A few biscuits. Mr Pat’s one big baddie. He put that Dau Sha Bing on the table and erm.. yarh.. LOL.
Dinner - A lil’ rice with lean pork, fish, gravied potatoes and soup. No fried stuff.
Supper - I guess I better listen to Kok Wei and avoid night snacks.
There.. overall I’m happy because it’s a gd start, and I believe it’s all abt strong-will, determination and motivation that spur me on.. Jia You to me..
First day of work was amazing. Amazingly boring. A lively full strength attendance, but still absolutely, utterly, boring. Hey camp mates reading this, don’t tell Fammy I said bored. I’ll kill you. Time goes by so.. s.l.o.w.l.y (Familar?)
So there I walked around (barefoot with socks only) in office trying to get something to do. I spotted some binding rings and played with them. Diao. And my afternoon was spent whacking gems in honey’s room.
I’m recollecting my thoughts. I’m pondering over what honey and other camp mates said this morning about the weight thing. It comes after denouncing “slimming down” as one of my resolutions. Recalling…
Remus: “Hey richie, try losing 1 kg every month. By year end, you’d have lost 12″.
Kok Wei: “Hey richie, try this. Eat half of every portion of food served to”.
Beng: He sat there and encouraged me with his eye-pleasing mouth-watering noodles =_=.
Honey: “Hey, me and guojie were thinking of getting you a L size. It gives you the motivation to cut down on your weight so you can fit in”.
o.O
Samuel, too knows I’m working on it. And so I skipped lunch! Yay!
2.40 pm: I went around telling people how hungry I was LOL.
2.41 pm: Justin heard me and jioed me to go Canteen. Fuck!
2.45 pm: So off we went. And there was Samuel! He was going tsk tsk.. and Desmond! His bowl of laksa right in front of me! *slurp* Couldn’t take it anymore.. So I ordered a healthy dou sha bun and a plate of fan choi. When I was about to settle down at the table, that damn auntie with her loud pharynx, went “Lai lai, sao sao de bao bing”. Fuck! They were hot and crispy and fucking tempting! I ordered 2. XD
T_T.
And bloody Justin was like “Hey richie, go order laksa la, since you weren’t full”. OMG. O..M..G.
So did I order laksa?
LOL nope I didn’t. And I’m glad I didn’t. I was really really glad I didn’t have it.
On my way home, I couldn’t care and bought a bubble tea.
Oh dear.. what am I gonna do?! What’s wrong with me?! Why am I always tempted to foods around me? Eeek.. Cannot cannot.. The next time I eat too much (I hope I do realise lol), I’m gonna self-mutilate.. like bite my fingers lol.
And what a bad day for Epi and Mr Vincent. A GID outbreak broke out at his camp. How sway can it be!! On the first day?!! Man!!
Omg. Kim Bum Soo’s voice is simply amazing. And i mean serious! Not a single voice, a sound has gotten me enticed and AWED in months already lol. His range. His emotions. Everything. Superb!
Get the mp3 song “I Miss You”, or “Bogoshipda”.
The lyrics are here:
(Stanza)
amoori kidaryuhdo nan motka
…No matter how long you wait, I can’t go…
babochuhrum oolko inneun (nuh)nuh-yi kyuhte
…To be by you, crying like a fool.
sangchuhman jooneun nareul weh moreuko kidarini
…Why do you still wait for me and not see that I’m only scaring you?
tuhnakaran marya
…I’m telling you to leave me.
(Refrain 1)
bogoshipda, bogoshipda
…I want to see you. I want to see you.
irun nega miwuhjil mankeum
…So much that you would hate to see me like this.
oolgoshipda, nege mooreup koolko
…I want to cry and get on my knees…
modoo uhptun iri dwel soo itdamyun
…If only it would make everything never to have happened.
(Chorus)
michil deus saranghetun ki-uhgi
…The memory of the love that drove me crazy…
choo-uhkdeuri nuhreul chatko itjiman
…Though all the memories are looking for you…
duh isang sarang-iran byunmyung eh
…I won’t use the excuse called love anymore…
nuhreul kadool soo uhpsuh.
…To keep you locked away.
iruhmyun andwejiman.
…I shouldn’t be doing this but…
joogeul mankeum bogoshipda.
…I want to see you so much I would die.
(Instrumental)
(Refrain 2)
bogoshipda, bogoshipda
irun nega miwuhjil mankeum
mitkoshipda, orheun kirirago.
nuhreul wihe duhnayaman handago.
(Repeat Chorus)
joogeul mankeum mitkoshipda.
…I want to forget you so much I would die
He’s my new idol for January lol.
My first movie ever, in 2006! Yay!
Not bad a show. It’s a comedy with a dash of tragedy. Watch it and you’ll know. Lots of talking. Ms Parker acted well. In her role, she acts as the unlikable uptight careerist fiancee whom his boyfriend brings home to meet his family for Christmas. Everyone was appalled and couldn’t quite get along with her except Ben, a slacker. The whole show shows different scenes where Sarah kinda offended some of the family members. And she called for her sister, Julie as support. I like Rachel McAdams. She’s so pretty lol!
And I didn’t know putting on the wedding ring on Girl B brings bad luck to the guy and Girls A and B. >.<
All in all, a nice show to start the new year haha. 3/5 I’d rate.
Have anyone told me that I haven’t fulfilled like 80% of my 2005’s resolutions? Lol. Anyway, I think resolutions are good. They keep me going. They keep my days going. In some way or another. It’s like the goals for the year and after fulfilment of these goals, regardless whether they’re big, small, easy or difficult, once achieved, it demonstrates something. I can actually do it. And I did it! That gives me self-belief and confidence.
So here are my 2006 resolutions:
The world.
Peace. Happiness.
May the bad guys be punished and may the good guys be rewarded.
May the poor get out of poverty soon.
The nation.
Quit putting on airs.
Stop the indignant look and attitude.
Strive together as one.
And stop fucking cheat me of GST and Service Tax.
Myself.
Cut down on weight. Geez.. 4 years the same resolution Lol.
Eat at least 2 fruits every day.
Be punctual for every single occasion, event, meeting, appointment, session, rendezvous woot.
Work smart in office.
Aim to travel to Japan at year-end.
Try to remember all my friends’ birthdates.
Watch at least 4 good movies every month.
Family.
Nothing. Just keep your promises.
Yay it’s 2006!!
Ho ho! Twnty o’ six here I come!
A new year. A new blog. And that means my previous one will get abandoned - for a few reasons I wish not to detail :]
Amazingly 2005 has passed real fast that sometimes I couldn’t quite catch most of the events that happened in my life. For instance, there were some of the good enjoyable moments I had that deserve remembrance. And there were some.. dreadful, terrible, disastrous, and even painful ones I wouldn’t even think about. It felt as if my days weren’t well-lived. But.. all is over. :] A new year marks a new beginning and I hope to take each and every single day henceforwards faithfully and meaningfully.
Looking back, 2005 saw me serving the nation. I literally basically spent almost the entire year in army - right from the 22nd day up till today. Let me recall some of the greatest and worst moments of my life in 2005.
Smiles and Laughter:
- 21st Birthday Celebrations
- Fammy’s treat to Swensens
- The fun of whacking gems in office every now and then
- Movies from Star Wars to Narnia (the adverts moved my butt)
- My Vacation (Genting isn’t so bad after all!)
- Incessant Shopping Crazes (incl. retail therapy)
- G8 Spore Sale Season (whacked stores. How cool is that!)
- The mini X’mas party in Office
- X’mas parties with Friends and Relatives
- My devotion towards making music
- Reading all about my idols - Mariah incl. of cos)
- 3 to 4 Hr Long KTV Sessions
- The fun moments going with friends for meals
- 6260; the day I received it
- Virgin entry into MOS (still vividly remembered the scene outside)
- The sweet warm moments when family congregates at the feasting table
- Band and musical concerts I attended after months of anticipation
Not forgetting the bad ones:
- How I was pissed on one rainy day after work
- The period of depression after a breakup
- Who’s to go for Cresc.
- My transitional lenses that was Short-Lived!
- Health Implications (haven’t really recovered since April)
- How I literally broke down in office in front of my camp mates
- How I suffered 2 weeks of itch, pain and image worriments after gotten facial dermatitis (damn the dettol wipe)
- How I ‘gladly’ received 2 xtras during 1st week of Bmt
- Cheated off $1,200
- Worried sick when mum has to go for rounds of colonoscopic check-ups
- Lost a library book (and an expensive one!) and had to pay for it. fuck.
- How I hurled profanities at my fucking stubborn laptop (put a spycam in my room and u’ll know)
These are but some of the interesting incidents in my life. In 2005.
Hope to see better days in 2006!
