Some matters just have to come and I can’t avoid them forever; one of which is my degree studies.
Today was IDP Aus Uni Day where representatives from selected Unis come to Singapore to open applications to hopefuls. I didn’t go cos I don’t see the pt of going there again. It’s the usual stuffs like enquiring on courses of my interest, submitting results and perhaps getting seats and scholarships on the spot. Just that application fee’s waived. Oh well~ there’s another one in Oct so no fret 
Something that made me get into a fix was the letter I received from SMU regarding matriculation and confirmation of my seat in their school of information systems management with their bachelor programme of 4 yrs (hons). Frankly I really really didn’t expect it to come soon (like I really need some time to think about it?!) And in the letter was:
“I am pleased to let you know that a special matriculation exercise has been planned for NSMne such as yourself on Jan 21st. … … … …
As you have been accepted by SMU, your matriculation will help secure your place at our university. Please treat this as an absolute deadline, and unless you let us know in advance why you could not come, we may take your absence to mean that you no longer wish to come to SMU. We reserve the right to reallocate your place to other applicants on our waiting list.”
I’m getting confusions right now. My mum and dad have left me to think about it by myself. I have done so - sat down, ponder over what I want to do, achieve in future, pull in factors such as profession vs passion. etc.. They seemed concerned about me and my decisions, then again they put on nonchalance everytime I mentioned this to them. They would say go overseas no money, go overseas then who can guarantee your safety, well-being and discipline? etc etc.. I don’t blame anybody except myself for my flaw of being undecisive, especially when it concerns my future.
I have a Dip in business information technology and was thinking if I take business deg, it’d help me propel in future. Then again.. I used to have regrets taking the diploma in business information technology.. why haven’t I read architecture or spent more time focusing on what I want to specialise in back then? and i didn’t want to have regrets again later when choosing degree. besides.. after the diploma course i finally realised how weak I was in accounting, sales, marketing which are the main business core aspects, and better at management-related modules where I had book prizes.. and in the IT side, I was more proficient in the design aspect but not as gd in areas of programming, java codings, software development etc.. too hardcore for me..
And then I moved on searching for other degree courses which I may be interested in. Apparently it’s so difficult, not cos there were too many courses to choose from but, because I realised I’ve yet to explore my true interests and what I’d think I can focus and excel in and areas that I would so totally avoid taking.. Sigh.. I seriously need help and someone to talk to..
In my process of course scrutinising, I’ve considered the following with what I want..
- NTU is a nono.. NUS and SMU are good.
- I’d like to study overseas but the money factor… haiz~.. even scholarships won’t be enough to cover the high fees + there ain’t any guarantees that I can successfully get one.
- I have background in business and IT.
- I want my course to have good prospects.
- I want to earn big bucks next time and achieve status in the industry..
- I’m not really an analytical person (that explains why I’m not gd in economics, physics or accounting)..
- I’m more of an artistic creative person (that explains my love for geography, art, music, design, math, astronomy, etc..)
- I like to work independently and of cos sometimes in groups.. but mainly solo.
- I want to finish my degree in the shortest possible time (i.e. get credit exemptions and the only way I can do so is to study business-related stuffs cos I can ‘cancel out’ modules I’ve taken before)
I’ve considered architecture cos of the nature of it and everything that kinda suits me.. but it’s freaking 4 yrs..
I’ve considered fashion management / designing cos I like to set up a boutique in future (but I hate sewing..)
I’ve considered taking Geog degree but not very gd prospects and it’s also again, 4 yrs - non-business so no exemptions.
I’ve considered taking overseas degrees such as melbourne uni where I am confident I can be awarded a scholarship.. but it’s 2.5 yrs and the cost of everything will be exorbitantly high..
What am I supposed to decide on??
Shall I take my parents and GJ’s advice to give up on my SMU and go for business studies at NUS?
I don’t know..
I really don’t know..
If only I can be S.I or pursue singing.. but then again these are almost impossible dreams no matter how I believed in myself..
